Notice

Just want to let everyone know that I shall not be attending the activity on Sunday for my so-called mother and her easy-to-read attitude, she will not allow me.

I'm sorry to everyone.

~zAZa~

Unforgivable

From this day on, I am mute to my so called mother. I have no interest to talk to her or explain to her about anything anymore. If she has no ears to listen then so shall I. If she will not listen then I am mute. If she hates me then I will be happy.

I got scolded for going for a walk in the park. A FUCKING park. So if I was a boy, I can go? Just cause I'm a girl and there's a crowded park near the house I can't go? Then I wished I was born male.

How I wish god would take her away. Bring her away from me. Get her out of my life. I don't want her in it. At all. I am not a doll that must always listen to you. You are not always right. You are idiotic in many standards. And I hate you.

What Happened Last Month

Well at the beginning of the month, I got scolded for something I didn't even do. And my stupid ass DISOWN sister was snickering away and it's obviously her fault. When I asked her why did she pin the blame on me, she just said cause you deserve it. I felt like beating her and send to the hospital then hope she goes into a coma and die.

Seriously. Like I didn't do a FUCKING thing to her and she does that. I hope she drops dead.

Then in the middle of the month I was so jobless and all I heard from my parents and teachers that we should start studying now and we should put away all our games and discipline ourselves and shit. I'm like so fed up of hearing the same lecture at school and at home.

I mean like fuck off, I don't wanna hear that from you.

And everyone thinks I'm ditching them and stuff. It's really depressing when you put it that way. I mean my parents think I'm some kind of ingrate and it hurts especially when I don't say anything back to them. I have never even yelled at them. Must it be this stressful? I mean it's only April.

My tuition teacher is like giving me as much homework as the school does. How is that fair? My dad said before I started having tuition that I was only gonna get it 3 days a week so I was like okay. But now I realized that my parents are fucking liars and I can never ever trust them but my friends, Rauf and myself.

And sister, Badrissa, form 5. Is being more of a bitch by the day. She's so selfish. Also inconsiderate of other people. And does not know how to wait.

Okay and I got to see my baby. Look at her!









Isn't she cute? This is what I've been happy about. I'm sorry if I said something that hurt anyone, it's just I'm under alot of pressure. ESPECIALLY from my parents. I don't want anything to add to that. I mean my parents think that my future is in jeopardy just cause I skipped 1 day of school. Like WTF.

BTW Rach I love you so much and I never get to chat with you anymore. I feel very sad about that.

Awin, the guessing thing. Ya, I totally give up.

Dniz, you look hot.

Priyanka, keep smiling.

May, yo!

Miya, wakakakaka.

Sam, keep trying.

Rauf, just don't let me crack.

I hope nothing happens to you guys cause I love you all dearly. And you guys are the only reason why I want to live.

Again I love you guys. Don't hate me a'ight?

~zAZa~